Changing My Life Day 7 Of 60
Written by: Aron Brown
Today wasn’t as productive as I would have wanted it to be. I worked till 6:00PM, once again we were barebones staff. I still think its ridiculous how little hours they give us, but I digress.
After work I went over to my recent ex-girlfriends house, we are trying to remain friends because our relationship didn’t end on a negative note, it just ended. At this point in our lives she’s going out of state to college, and I’m trying to jumpstart my career; we have no idea where either of us will end up in two years time. For all I know I could get a job in California and never see her again.
At this point in order for either of us to continue to grow, we both must go our separate ways. It’s the best choice for both of us. Who knows one day our paths may cross again, but this was a decision that had to be made. It wasn’t an easy decision, and it will take some adjusting, but we will get through it and everything will be all the better for it. I hope.
Today is day 7 of 60, and I am changing my life. What have you done today?
We conciously and knowingly smother ourselves in relationships, drinking down the glass before we get our food, eating too fast before the next serving is ready. We know we delve too deep and feel we are losing ourselves, but we continue to go deeper and forget what it was to be just ourselves, as an individual. There must be a way to be fully yourself at the same time as giving a piece of yourself to someone else, someone you love. It’s about sharing yourself, not trashing who you were and creating a new “double person”. I’m sure I will learn eventually. And when I have matured and understood myself more, and the world around me, only then can I settle down with someone and give them all they deserve in a relationship. Only then can I fulfill my life and help them fulfill they’re life. I hope that love is not just a floating feeling that attaches to occational people. I hope it is a feeling for specific people. And I hope someday I will be ready for that love, maybe your love, my love.
ex-girlfriend